如果我留下

因为看过西语版本的小说兴致勃勃跑来看了翻拍的电影，可能是因为已经仔细阅读了原著，看电影时居然有一种神圣的感觉，像是沿着一条breadcrumb一点点拾掇着原著里的情节。
总体来说，可能画面注定没有文字与生俱来的细腻感，再加上时间限制，电影里的心理活动相比起原著里丝丝入扣的描写明显平淡许多。然而原著里突出的情节在电影里都得到了很好的还原，比如年轻时代朋克风的爸爸妈妈，热爱iggy pop的泰迪小弟，摇滚风的亚当和大提琴家米娅。正如米娅自己说的，是大提琴造就了自己，虽然让她觉得与家庭成员毫不一致，但是也让她感受到了爸爸无私的爱，为了米娅极高的天赋，他选择放弃了乐队。正如他说，有时候，牺牲是必要的。
最后米娅还是在挣扎中醒来，或许是爷爷的释然，或许是好友的鼓励，又或许是亚当的挽留和吉他，总之，醒来后的生活确实是大变样，不过，一切都会好起来的，不是吗？
最后表白男主，青涩的脸庞简直是少女心扑通，玩音乐果真是大大的魅力加分项。

1. 那个我喜欢的乐队

刚开始看这部电影的时候，被吸引的整个都是那个乐队。想到了自己喜欢一个乐队的心情。不是多么有名的乐队，但就是喜欢他们，想要追着他们，看着他们越来越成长的时候却又有些不甘心，就像自己心爱的东西不得不跟别人分享。觉得「能有一个玩儿音乐的男朋友真好啊」之类的。一起疯一起叫，那种心情大概不追乐队的人是体会不了的吧。

想象着有一天我也可以跨越海洋去看他们的表演，live完一起庆功宴，新年一起party，也许跟其中的几个人成为好朋友。只是普通人的自己和只是普通人的乐队的他们，应该也没有那么大的差别吧。

只有当他们站在舞台上的时候。

乐队站在舞台上的时候总是闪闪发光的。绚丽的灯光，台下人的尖叫。当他们站在台上的时候又变得那么触不可及。

但我还是想要一个玩儿音乐的男朋友。他们会为你写歌，他们会在live的时候只看着你的眼睛，他们会在庆功宴的时候也带你去。

追着乐队的你，一定知道我在说什么。


2. Sacrifice. That's what we do for the people that we love.

- I've been trying to think of what Denny would want me to say to you. The kid was a helluva of dad, wasn't he? He sure had me beat. I remember the day that he quit the band. He just up and said, "That's it. The time has come." I was surprised. I never really liked the way the band sounded, but I knew how important it was to him. And so I asked him, I said, "Why are you quitting?" And he said, "You make sacrifices for your kids." "For your kids." He said that without even blinking. That's why he quit the band.

- For Teddy.

- For you. It was when he heard you play so well. I think that's when it clicked for him. Your incredible talent, it... He just couldn't believe it. And all he want to do was to give you more. So, he quit the band, he sold his drum kit and he bought you that cello. Sacrifice. That's what we do for the people that we love.
  And here's mine, Mia. I want you to live. I want that more than anything in this world. I want you to fight like hell to stay with us. But, with everybody else gone, I know it might not be what you want. It might be too hard for you to keep fighting, so... If you wanna go, I want you to know it's okay. It's okay. I understand.

      其实在我看来，一部影片最重要的并不是说她有多么好的特效来夺人眼球，而是它整个故事的完整性，好让你在看的时候不愿快进，在看完的时候又在脑中不断地回想，嘿，我想再往前倒退。
      由此这部影片便开始显得珍贵了，当你只想回看开头的那份报纸，就会跟亚当最后放弃演出一心回到米娅身边守护，又在阳台上懊悔不已的画面联系在一起；当你听完爷爷的那番话，你就想回看到当时爸爸卖掉自己心爱的鼓买回女儿大提琴时那脸上喜悦的笑……
      这是一部音乐贯穿始终的剧，也许很多人说故事老套，但我觉得很多学音乐的人都能有共鸣吧。为了米娅对音乐的热忱，所有家人的牺牲，家人的鼓励，到后来与男友亚当之间出现分歧，都让人不由回想，还记得温柔的父母在你学琴的那段岁月对你的爱之深、责之切么？
      不知为何，看完《星运里的错》和这部两部文艺片的预告片之后，还是首选了这部，可能也比较喜欢这部的演员吧。
      总之，看了一遍还想在看，心中总有一个地方漏跳了半拍。
     

这个故事也许看起来一切都还OK，但是深入进去，发现这一切都像崩塌了一样。如果这一切发生在我身上，我该怎么办，我是留下还是结束这一切呢。
我预测不了这个结果，只知道，胆怯如我，一定会选择逃避。
喜欢女孩为了梦想而活，也感激男孩勇敢的表白。
如果留下，要更感激生命。每一天都是美好的一天，每一天都有太阳升起。我们应该快乐。

We, grown-ups, seems to be stubbornly convinced that young adult stories are stupid, and only teenagers themselves will be silly enough to fall in love with this kind of "so-called" romantic novels.
For that we already knew the transitory characteristic of love. We understand it, crystal clear, right from the beginning of the film that their love story might not even live through the winter, they are not going to survive the long distance after high school, not to mention that the post-traumatic stress our heroine must deal with as long as she wake up after the car accident(, though this is the story in its sequel 'Where She Went'). We know that, time itself might bring an end to the relationship between this young man and this young woman.

But, is it not the most beautiful part of every teenager love story, or of puberty? What make those young children, those teenager boys and girls so attracting is that they take their pure love, their approaching departure, their breakup as this important that their hearts are tortured by whips for thousands of times. The pain is all that matters, that hurts, that suffocates, and they think they will never get through this. They struggle, they quarrel, they cry, they reconcile with each other, as love and pain remains the only theme of their adolescence.

They do not know now, but they will understand it one day, that all these love and pain, joy and suffering will become a memory with bitter sweets or even a memory with no colour, a memory that brings back no sensation. However, this never counteract the real experience they are right now undergoing. All these hurts, all these emotions, all these tears are once so real, that almost break their hearts or already broke them. They live in drama, not because they are affected, but their lives are filled with dramatic conflicts.

Not until the puberty ends, along with the death of drama, will these whole true life-play come to a termination.
Then, teenage love, which is so void but sincere, dies alongside with it.